Why am i so….ohhhhh
Okay so I signed up for a 5 day social story challenge, because I set a goal for myself to show up
More authentically online, and
To show myself on camera more, because people want real people
This is so awkward for me. I dont know why but the thought of putting myself out to the masses feels so weird. Which in hindsight is weird because I am a teacher, in many capacities. So I am used to speaking infront of people IRL. But I have always felt awkward putting myself out there. Nerves always take over and it’s almost like my fight or flight kicks in and is yelling at me “ WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!”
I was the quiet kid, the kid who made themself small, who preferred to go under the radar. Which now that i think of it, it makes total sense that when I make myself big and take up space I clam up.
It’s almost like I needed to give myself permission to show up, to assure myself that it’s okay to take up space, to be loud. From such a young age were told to “be quiet” and stay in line, I was conditioned to fit in instead of stand out.
Here’s the thing, I don't want to fit into a pre described mold. I want to be loud, take up space, be my weird wonderful self, and i want that for you to sweet reader.
That is why my business is Liv out LOUD, I want to inspire others to show up, to take up space. In order for me to do that I need to lead by example. I need to step up to the front of the classroom of life and share my piece. I can’t expect others to follow my advice and do it, if im not doing it myself. I feel like I just cracked something open here, like this secret was just revealed.
Putting in the work is HARD
Showing up for yourself is HARD
deciding that you want different is the easy part, but actully following thorough with it is tough sh*t.
Yes Liv out Loud may be a continual journey, but Ive taken the first step and thats what it’s all about. You dont have to show up perfect, you just have to show up.
So I invite you to show up today. Do one thing that scares you, push yourself past your comfort zone and towards your dreams.
You deserve it.
Xo Liv
